MUSH

For the past 3 or so weeks I have been feeling very peculiar. I choose the word peculiar, because it's difficult to describe any other way.

Simply put, my brain feels like mush...

I struggle to concentrate, my thought patterns are haywire, I lose track of what week it is, never mind what day... Things are very strange and I can't explain it. I started yoga, roughly around the same time that this all started. I also however, had my medication increased... In the Yoga studio, I can focus and everything is perfect. The second I leave my brain goes into overload.

It's getting to a point where I pretty much feel numb and oblivious to the things that are going on around me. I phase out at times while friends are talking to me. (which has resulted in an argument or two)

I;m not sure if it is because everything is happening at once and I'm trying to think ahead and plan. I try live one day at a time, but it's difficult when your brain decides to do something else.

I had made arrangements to view a new flat last night (this was arranged 3 days ago), but the middle of the day yesterday my brain decides to tell me that I missed it and it was last week that I was supposed to go. Luckily the guy messaged me to remind me yesterday afternoon. (The place was crap small and dark though)

I don't really know what to do!?! I mean do I carry on for a while and hope things level out? Hmmmpf